2020 hasn’t been our year.
And it pains me to even type that sentence out. It makes me feel like a failure. Last year when we decided to take the plunge into full-time stay-at-home-parent life, our businesses were booming. We were financially secure. We worked so hard to become a better team and find a schedule that works for our family.
We got pregnant… on purpose! Planned, and wanted, and so loved from the moment she was conceived. We had no idea that 2020 would be the year of the pandemic, that our finances and income would plummet, that we would be in a constant state of panic and anxiety. We had no idea that school would be canceled and our seemingly perfect schedule would disappear into thin air. That our hospital would start banning visitors and we would start looking into an unmedicated, home birth.
Everything changed. Some things, in the blink of an eye.
And others, slowly, over time.
In the midst of this confusion and anxiety, there is so much joy to be had. Togetherness, that our family had never experienced with our jam packed, busy schedules. We might not be where we want to be with our businesses taking a 3-4 month income toll, but in other areas of our life, we are more blessed than we could ever imagine.
There are so many components to our current lifestyle that would have never existed pre-2020. Homebirth, homeschooling, looking into moving to a space where we can grow our own garden and have farm animals, and the number one thing that comes to mind: how close we’ve gotten as a family.
I guess what I’m trying to say, is 2020 hasn’t been the year we had dreamed for and planned for. And it might just be our hardest year yet, truthfully. And yet, somehow, it’s one of the biggest years of growth and at the end of every day, I’m more thankful than I have ever, ever been.
Looking at these beautiful photos from our family maternity session with Wildlings Photo Co., all I feel is overwhelming gratitude for how God has blessed our family.
Images and styling by Wildlings Photo Co.